Note: I'm not complaining or whining even though it may seem like it. I know too many people who would love to have these problems so they could bring healthy children into the world. I'm thankful everyday that I'm able to do that and I pray for my loved ones who have some of those trials. I just wanted to write down some thoughts....
1) I'm grateful that all of my children are (will be) born between Feb-early June. Today was hot enough to make me crazy. My crazy sister had a baby at the end of August. In Phoenix. Nuf said. I only have two pair of capris (one with a bleach stain) and two shirts that fit me comfortably right now. I guess I will be doing laundry every couple days until she decides to grace us with her presence.
2) I'm grateful that I get to learn how people with health problems feel. It is hard to almost feel like an invalid. I can't even walk up the stairs without feeling winded. It's hard to not be able to bend over and pick up that weed or toys, mow the lawn, bend to tie that shoe etc. etc. It's amazing how fast you forget this feeling once you have the baby. I'm grateful for my healthy body.
3) I'm always worried that I won't be able to handle the pain. I'm a wuss. I was the most spastic with B and have gotten better with the last two. I worry that I will go too fast to get an epidural. (It's hasn't happened yet, but you never know.) I admire you brave warrior women who go without one.
4) You would think with 3 other kids that one might know when she in labor. All three have been quite different, so will I recognize the feeling?
5) Figuring out how to take one more person to the store is always challenging. Being due at the end of school has it's advantages and disadvantages. One- I don't have to get anyone out the door, but at the same time I have to take everyone to the store and entertain them all day long.
6) I'm a person who needs my sleep. How long will I be a zombie with sleep deprivation? I know I have survived this three times and this too shall pass. You get through it. You learn to deal. Life does go on.
7) Having heartburn in the middle of the night until I finally have to go sit up and read for an hour until everything settles back down.
Will I survive this little person who needs me 24-7? Of course, kids are so worth it. I'm excited. I'm ready. I will just keep telling myself this.